What film, in general, needs now is a Punk Rock Attitude

How can energy be injected into film?
Injected without the use of CGI and that type of false ilk.
I just saw a Hollywood blockbuster and, sheesh, what a big 100 million lumbering retarded giant.
I want those two hours of my life back.
I want this film to be utterly real, utterly raw.
I want the energy that punk rock music has.
I want that kind of attitude... (not in subject, but in our attitude, the filmmaker's, that is.)
I feel that at times we're acting in the conventions of what is acceptable documentary, what passes for acceptable filmmaking.
That makes me queasy.
That is something that I simply will not do.
Never.
Now wonder this project has taken longer than, crap, three months.
And, in some respects, I feel like our subjects are so used to us being around that they are simply and only being.
Being themselves.
Being as they are.
It's best when that's what it is...
Only occasionally do I get the feeling that they are changed by us being there.
But mostly Gil and Dave just are.
Mostly, I'm beginning to notice, that they are getting worried that they are over their heads.
Or that they need tutelage.
Or that they need, at the very least, their phone calls answered, there emails responded to.
I don't even know if this makes sense.
I am, for some reason, feeling helpless.
At the mercy of our subjects.
That I can do nothing to drrive the story.
That's the writer in me.
That me being impatient.
That's me tire and angry and kinda hungry.